7.7.05 : Thursday Reflecting on Tuesday

My 27 attention-needful 3rd graders had snuffed me out like just another candle on a birthday cake. You can imagine all that unbridled human breath, and all the human karma riding on it. Thoroughly exhausted after a full day of teaching summer school, and after all the July 4th festivities the day and night before, I took a long and sweet late nap on Tuesday afternoon.

In the dream that ensued I found myself at a party, this time with a few Mexican rancher friends - dream companions that I'd never seen before - strapping, jovial guys wearing tight fitting jeans, thick black bigotes, shiny silver belt buckles, and eye-catching cowboy boots and hats. We were laughing and drinking, corny jokes tossing back and forth like corks on the ocean.

Shooting the breeze beneath a palm-thatch palapa like this, my habitual train of self-thought was utterly derailed by the good time I was having. Self-concern had bled into the surrounding scene, and I had lost track of myself as a result. That's when one of those handsome caballeros called out to me and asked, "Hey! So, what've you been up to lately?"

"Me?" I replied rather matter-of-factly. "I've just been coloring myself in."

"Coloring myself in." I awoke with these provocative words spilling audibly off my tongue. I could not stop thinking about them either, their myriad of implications, for the rest of that night and the following morning.

There is nothing so exquisite or eloquent to me as the Unconscious whispering its dream language in my inner ear. (Or inner eye, since most often its messages are visual). But whether it's visual or vocal, I am always amazed by the beauty of this 'twilight language'. These extraordinary communiques are nothing less than the very subtle fragrance of the world within my own being. It's high time I shared that wonderful world with the world at-large.

Color Me In is a journal of Self-recognition, a simple expression of Being-Consciousness-Bliss, satchidananda, embodied here-and-now as "I am". Welcome!